A New Life.

2011. A year of new beginnings. What do people mean when they say that? You don't actually begin again do you? Because last time I checked I was the same person I have always been. Slightly older. But still the same old me. So what does that actually mean? I think that is my project for this year. To find out what that actually means. Can you begin again? Is there a way to do this?
I want to find out how to do that. I would do some things differently for sure. What do I want to come of this year?

1. I want to love. I want to find someone who will take me as I am. I am not perfect. I am just a quirky crazy person. I am very opinionated. I know what I want from life. Or at least I think I do. I often ask myself who can love this difficult person. Are they out there?

2. I wanna laugh more. I often think to myself that I am too serious. I feel like I have missed out on opportunities because take things too seriously. I wonder if things would be different if I had loosened up a little. I wanna hurt from laughter on a day to day basis.

3. I wanna forgive. I have a lot of resentment in my life. People who have done me wrong, and therefore I resent them. I wanna take this year and try to forgive those people. I know people always say to forgive those who have wronged you, but I think they just say that and they never do. Because it is hard.

4. I wanna find my way. I wanna find the direction my life is going in and invest my whole being into it. So many things have come my way and its hard deciding which one is the best for me. I don't wake up one day and realize that I am going down a path that I shouldn't be on. I wanna find out what truly makes me happy and do it no matter what. I have thought a lot about that lately.

Is this what a new beginning feels like? If it is, lets hope I can stick with it. 365 days to a new beginning.

Well here goes nothing.