Let's Waste Time Chasing Cars

Back in the groove of things.

I have already fallen by the way side. What started out as a new years resolution to write out my journey of the year 2011, I am already slacking. It is only January. But in my defense college has been CRAZY! On our first day back... We didn't have it. Ice stopped our return. So the rest of the week was thrown into hyper-drive because of that missed day. Teachers already felt behind,and many things felt rushed.

School is awesome this semester. I am looking forward to all my classes. They seem like they are all going to be great classes. Of course it doesn't hurt that they don't start until at least 10 every day. I didn't plan that, but its nice how it worked out for me.

I am happy of the college choice I have made. My biggest pet peeve is people who go to a university because thats where their parents want them to go, not where they might get the best education. I am glad my parents let me make my own decision (Though its the one they wanted me to go to). I love college so much more knowing I got to go to the school that I wanted to, and I am studying the things that I want to study.

One thing before I sign off.... PV!! I bleed Purple.

Going the Distance

I watched a good movie today. It was called Going the Distance. It stars Drew Barrymore and Justin Long. The title says it all. Its central plot was about having long distance relationships. Can they work? DO they work?

Last year I tried my hand in a long distance relationship. I thought it was the perfect relationship. They were so much like me it was scary. Starting off it was simple. A lot of talking on the phone and then promises that we would see each other soon. Well as most of you know, life steps in and changes those promises. Towards the end of the relationship, it got harder and harder to talk to them. I resented them and I resented myself for it to. I didn't want this to happen. Honestly. I felt a connection with this person. Finally the distance got to us. They broke it off because it was too hard. I can't say I don't blame them, but I wonder what would have happened if things had been different.

I miss talking to this person. I can't say that I Does that happen with all long distance relationships? Being apart causes riffs and resentments? It would seem like people who are together all the time would be more likely to get mad at each other, but it seems like it is harder for them to get mad at each other. Distance makes anger worse. It certainly how most movies portray them. Not at all.

Do they work? I hope for all others that it does. Love is important in life.

Go forth and love.

A New Life.

2011. A year of new beginnings. What do people mean when they say that? You don't actually begin again do you? Because last time I checked I was the same person I have always been. Slightly older. But still the same old me. So what does that actually mean? I think that is my project for this year. To find out what that actually means. Can you begin again? Is there a way to do this?
I want to find out how to do that. I would do some things differently for sure. What do I want to come of this year?

1. I want to love. I want to find someone who will take me as I am. I am not perfect. I am just a quirky crazy person. I am very opinionated. I know what I want from life. Or at least I think I do. I often ask myself who can love this difficult person. Are they out there?

2. I wanna laugh more. I often think to myself that I am too serious. I feel like I have missed out on opportunities because take things too seriously. I wonder if things would be different if I had loosened up a little. I wanna hurt from laughter on a day to day basis.

3. I wanna forgive. I have a lot of resentment in my life. People who have done me wrong, and therefore I resent them. I wanna take this year and try to forgive those people. I know people always say to forgive those who have wronged you, but I think they just say that and they never do. Because it is hard.

4. I wanna find my way. I wanna find the direction my life is going in and invest my whole being into it. So many things have come my way and its hard deciding which one is the best for me. I don't wake up one day and realize that I am going down a path that I shouldn't be on. I wanna find out what truly makes me happy and do it no matter what. I have thought a lot about that lately.

Is this what a new beginning feels like? If it is, lets hope I can stick with it. 365 days to a new beginning.

Well here goes nothing.